i only met her for a moment, but i loved her the moment we met. she came to me before she came to you.
if i understand this place correctly, she's safe back home. she won't even notice you're gone. but you do, of course. she's part of you, and i understand that pain.
i know this may not ease your anxieties, but most of the friends i've made here are trying to find a way home. plane shifting spells are ineffective from what i understand, and everyone's trying so hard to get back.
you're doing all you can. it's doubtful there's a solution you've missed by not looking hard enough.
it doesn't make me feel like less of a bad mother. i know that logically in this situation I'm not.
i just miss her. her and her 4pm snacktime and how she lights up at Percy, and the way she smells after she's bathed and the way she looks at me as she falls asleep.
i hate this place. i never knew what it meant before, and now
i find myself fantasizing about burning the place to the ground if it means i get to hold her at least a minute sooner.
[ it’s difficult for vax’ildan to sympathize. this island has given him a new hope, second chances at life and the relationships he’d let slide in taldorei. he wants to stay, more than he ever has.
but this isn’t about him. ]
i understand the need. the want. and if home is where you want to go, i would bend heaven and hell to get you there. i’m sorry.
you don’t have to go through this alone. you know you’ll always have me, you are part of me. when you hurt, i hurt.
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Date: 2021-06-14 11:56 pm (UTC)been able to adjust very well.
i went from no sleep to nothing but sleep, no private time to nothing but private time.
it's jarring. there isn't a little person i need to be waiting on hand and foot at all hours anymore and it's
i can't sleep.
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Date: 2021-06-15 12:31 am (UTC)if i understand this place correctly, she's safe back home. she won't even notice you're gone. but you do, of course. she's part of you, and i understand that pain.
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Date: 2021-06-15 12:44 am (UTC)it's different, this is
it's like when you first went, like my arm was missing.
but now, every day i feel like i'm failing her. like i'm not doing my best to get back to her, or something
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Date: 2021-06-15 01:03 am (UTC)you're doing all you can. it's doubtful there's a solution you've missed by not looking hard enough.
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Date: 2021-06-19 10:43 pm (UTC)i just miss her. her and her 4pm snacktime and how she lights up at Percy, and the way she smells after she's bathed and the way she looks at me as she falls asleep.
i hate this place. i never knew what it meant before, and now
i find myself fantasizing about burning the place to the ground if it means i get to hold her at least a minute sooner.
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Date: 2021-06-19 10:54 pm (UTC)but this isn’t about him. ]
i understand the need. the want. and if home is where you want to go, i would bend heaven and hell to get you there. i’m sorry.
you don’t have to go through this alone. you know you’ll always have me, you are part of me. when you hurt, i hurt.
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Date: 2021-06-19 11:17 pm (UTC)i stay, i have you and lose her.
i leave, i hold her and lose you. again.
this isn't a feeling that will just go away, i don't think. she's a part of me as much as you are. maybe more.
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Date: 2021-06-19 11:52 pm (UTC)then i’ll help fjord do whatever it takes to get you home.
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Date: 2021-06-20 12:48 am (UTC)it
it means the world to me, vax.