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[vaax]

i’m just grateful that it’s happening.

okay. i’m listening.

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He never stopped.

I mean. No sleeping in our bed, for one.

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i have two of my own, so that shouldn’t be an issue. what else?

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I might be rethinking his offer to make me my own now, too.

Just---just be aware. Okay?

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i pushed him.

if that makes it any easier to forgive him. i know he allowed it to happen, but maybe it wouldn't have if i hadn't pushed so hard.

of course.

i love you.

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I forgave him a long time ago, Vax.


I love you too.

[vaax]

maybe if i'm lucky i'll get there with you, too.

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if you're lucky.

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i can't lose you to this.

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you know why this is so difficult?

[vaax]

tell me anyway.

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It's not that it was my marriage or husband.

It's that the possibility of hurting me either didn't occur to you, or wasn't enough to deter you.

Three times, Vax.

You're my other half. I just. I can't understand.

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i'm sorry.

i'm --

just sorry.

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I know you are.

And I forgive you. I just.

My mind forgives you. But my heart needs time. Does that make any sense?

I want this feeling to go away and go back to normal as much as you do, gods do I, but it won't. And it won't for a while.

[vaax]

i'll be here for you when it does.
i've missed you so much, vex'ahlia. i'm not me without you.