it's strange, at first, you don't really feel like anything's that different, just that you're putting on a lot of weight. then a lot of your routines and day to day things start changing. like, horse riding? out of the question. hunting, too many stairs, running, eating certain foods. you dont really realize half the shit you do that's not too good to your lower body, like carrying things, etc. it was actually quite frustrating at first, you can ask percy---well. when you get back, you can ask him. i would get upset over the silliest things, and i thought for a little while perhaps that i was perpetually doing something wrong, that i'd never be---ah. invested, i suppose.
and then she moved. and it was a whole different story after that. she was a real person, at that point. and everything seemed like small change after. i could be alone in a room and it would hit me suddenly that i wasn't really actually alone in that room. i started rationalizing how and what she did, like climbing up into my ribs or curling up off to my right side as something she was doing with a purpose. she liked strawberries, and ice cold water. and percival's voice. she would roll about at his voice. and she always kicked for you, you and scanlan, the little shit. not so much for cassandra, but. she came around.
is that what you meant, or did you mean physically?
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timeasmymeasure
here's a shitload of cute headcanon
Date: 2021-06-28 03:09 am (UTC)it's strange, at first, you don't really feel like anything's that different, just that you're putting on a lot of weight. then a lot of your routines and day to day things start changing. like, horse riding? out of the question. hunting, too many stairs, running, eating certain foods. you dont really realize half the shit you do that's not too good to your lower body, like carrying things, etc. it was actually quite frustrating at first, you can ask percy---well. when you get back, you can ask him. i would get upset over the silliest things, and i thought for a little while perhaps that i was perpetually doing something wrong, that i'd never be---ah. invested, i suppose.
and then she moved. and it was a whole different story after that. she was a real person, at that point. and everything seemed like small change after. i could be alone in a room and it would hit me suddenly that i wasn't really actually alone in that room. i started rationalizing how and what she did, like climbing up into my ribs or curling up off to my right side as something she was doing with a purpose. she liked strawberries, and ice cold water. and percival's voice. she would roll about at his voice. and she always kicked for you, you and scanlan, the little shit. not so much for cassandra, but. she came around.
is that what you meant, or did you mean physically?